Thank you so much for this and all the effort you put in, such a good read!!!! love it ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Now I understand why JXN has that dream about XW at the end! wow. and omg just imagine if we actually got that novel scene in the drama where current life ZZ says to JXN "Your Majesty"
This is just my opinion so don't take it as facts or anything, but I feel like XW is such a complex character, you can't judge him only on the parts of himself that he chooses to show others, you have to look deeper. When you understand his trauma, and the determination, fear, and insecurity that comes with it, you will see the true intent behind his actions. He is a broken man who feels love so strongly for the FL, but doesn't know what to do with it, so it just continues to build up and build up, until it overtakes him and rushes out like a torrent of raw passion that he can't hold back. All the good and bad emotions associated with love are on display here, which is why he is so rough and seems "toxic" on the surface level. Maybe throat grabbing and forced kisses are unforgivable, but don't forget that he isn't in a healthy mental state either, while also being desperate for the FL. IMO the truly toxic character here is past life YL. Unlike past life YL, XW knows that the feeling between them is mutual. He doesn't cross the line by forcing her to sleep with him either (not even in the past life, when she tries to seduce him). He holds himself back (albeit barely, but he manages!) until she gives her consent. It would be so easy for XW to overpower JXN and force himself on her, just like past life YL did so many times. But he doesn't want that, he wants her love, not for her to fear him. There is no doubt that JXN loves XW, she admits it multiple times, and even promises him the future, yet she was not ready for marriage with him. The playing dead tactic at the end might look like gross manipulation to get her to agree to marriage, but I saw it as him giving her a taste of his own feelings/fears about JXN. He doesn't want to lose her to anyone or anything, in his mind marriage will bind them together forever. When JXN felt that same fear of losing XW, she was finally ready to take that next step. Besides, it has always been this way between them... JXN is stubborn, scared, and plays dumb while XW is frustrated and desperate, trying to get her to face her feelings. In ep 38.5, I loved JXN's speech about knowing and accepting all of him and I was sooo glad that she said that she would teach XW how to love someone properly. It drives home the fact that even though XW feels love deeply, he doesn't actually know how to express it in a healthy way. I misunderstood him at the start, but now he's one of my fav characters ❤️